I read CS Lewis' A Grief Observed this past week. First time to read it. I highly recommend it-really good read, and super fast. He describes grief in ways that makes sense to me. Some of you know what I have been walking through this season with loss and grief of friends and life. So I just wanted to share some of Lewis' thoughts on grief that really resonated with me this semester as I continue to grow. But mixed in with all of this grief is hope. I have been thinking a lot about hope after a conversation with a friend on Tuesday. So there is hope in the midst of all of this. Know that I won't leave you strictly with these thoughts of grief but that there is hope coming later this week.
I have experienced loss and death before, but never in ways like this. I have learned though that we serve a mighty God and we are more loved than we could ever imagine or comprehend. The pain is great but the redemption is greater.
"No one ever told me that grief felt so much life fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is life being afraid. The same fluttering on the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing.
At other times it feels like being mildly drunk, or concussed. There is a sort of invisible blanket between the world and me. I find it hard to take in what anyone says. Or perhaps, hard to want to take it in. It is so uninteresting. Yet I want the others to be about me. I dread the moments when the house is empty. If only they would talk to one another and not to me" (1).
"Grief is like a long valley, a winding valley where any bend may reveal a totally new landscape. As I've already noted, not every bend does. Sometimes the surprise is the opposite one; you are presented with exactly the same sort of country you thought you had left behind miles ago. That is when you wonder whether the valley isn't a circular trench. But it isn't There are partial recurrences, but the sequence doesn't repeat" (69).